OneSided!Kaoru x Reader: Shattered Heart

~Kaoru's POV~

She's happy, right? She'll be much happier if it was him, right? After all, I'm just taking care of my friend and twin... Right?

But if that's so, why is this so heartbreaking to watch? To be around them when they laugh and joke around with each other? Is this a punishment? A way for me to reflect on everything I've done?

I'm scared.

Please don't leave me.

Hikaru...

_________...

You guys may have fun around each other...

But what about me?

~Normal POV~

You leaned against the gates of the school, eagerly waiting for a certain twin. You have crushed on him for such a long time and you wanted to confess. Of course, there's his other twin but you loved this one so much. His strength and weaknesses. His perfection, his flaws. You couldn't help falling for the older twin.

Hikaru Hitachiin.

"Oi, ___________! We're here!" You hear his voice call out. You turned and gave him a giant smile. Just being around him makes you happy. You walked to the twins and walked between them, laughing and joking with them. But you didn't notice the younger twin was distancing himself a bit.

~Kaoru's POV~

Look at them. They are smiling and laughing so much. Why must I love her as much as I thought I couldn't? Can't she just see that I love her?

But... She loves Hikaru and he loves her back. I'm sure of it. I can tell. The way he looks at her. The way he gazes at her when she's not looking. The way he acts so differently with her than the girls that come to the Host Club.

Everything is different.

Ever since __________ came along.

Don't get me wrong, I love _________ a lot. I'm positive I love her more than brother does. But to love someone, you cannot keep them too close or you will end up hurt and will start hurting others around you. And I don't want to hurt anyone. Especially not them two. They look so happy.

Why must I be this way?

If only I can tell he-

"Kaoru? Is anything wrong?" A voice snapped me back into reality. I turned and saw __________ waving her hand in front of me.

"I'm fine!" I said quickly, blinking a couple of times. "I was just thinking,"

"Okay. Whatever you say!" _________ chirped and went back to joking with Hikaru.

If only I can tell her.

~Timeskip~

In the middle of class, Hikaru whispered something to _________. I already knew what it was. He was telling it to me this at break today but I wasn't sure if he was going to do it or not.

It was to confess his feelings to __________. I knew it.

Hikaru told __________ that he was going to tell her something at lunchtime. I saw ___________ nod. This was it. I'm going to have my heart broken for real. Do I want to hear it? Well, it would be for the best if it will help me move on. But can I really move on from __________?

I hope so.

~Timeskip~

~Normal POV~

You went behind the classroom right after the bell rang for lunch. You wondered what Hikaru wanted to tell you.

"Maybe he wants to confess?" You thought. "Nah... He wouldn't like someone like me,"

Not long after, Hikaru appeared behind the corner. A nervous smile on his face.

"What do you want to tell me, Hikaru?" You asked, looking up into his bright eyes. He started the sweat a bit and rubbed the back on his neck.

"Um... I wanted to tell you that..." Hikaru started. A few seconds passed before the continued. "I really, really like you, _________! Will you be mine?" He asked, a bright read glow on his cheeks. You were shocked, of course. He liked you back?

"Of course!" You said, hugging Hikaru tightly. Hikaru sighed in relief. He looked you in the eyes and pinned you onto the wall.

"Then... You wouldn't mind if I do... This?" He asked, giving you a kiss on the lips. You smiled and kissed him back.

Not knowing that the younger twin was right around the corner, hearing his own heart break and tears threatening to fall. He touched his chest, where his heart was and squeezed it. He wasn't sure if his heart was still there or not... Was it in one piece? Probably shattered.

It was time to move on for the younger Hitachiin. To make them happy. And to start distancing to stop being hurt.

~Timeskip~

~Kaoru's POV~

How did it end up this way? Was it my fault? What did I do wrong? I wanted to distance myself from them and THIS happens?

I stand is a huge mess, sofa turned over, vases shattered and the roses and water everywhere and me, cut from the glass.

And in the middle stood my angered brother. He glared at me with fierce eyes. Eyes that bear so much hatred. So much that I never seen before.

"You idiot! Why are you so distant these days? What did I do wrong?" Hikaru shouted, his voice echoing around the room.

"It's not you... It's me," I whispered, loud enough for Hikaru to hear.

"Then why?" He asked. Why? I'll tell him why. I'll tell him what I think.

"Why? I'll tell you why! I'm sick and tired of being so heartbroken! But I can't escape it. It's everywhere I go! At school, here at home, even when we go out with the Host Club members!" I yelled. I couldn't control my anger. And I can't turn back now. "You... You and ___________. The two of you are always so happy together! Why couldn't it be me? What is it that you have that I don't? I loved her more than you! So why?!"

Hikaru looked at me in shock. But apparently he didn't like me yelling at him. He wasn't impressed.

"What I have that you don't? Well at least I tried to befriend her! You didn't do anything! I deserve her more than you," Hikaru shouted. "You're so jealous! That's why I'll never give her to you. You know what? You're nothing good. I hate you! I wish you were never my twin brother! I don't want to see you ever again!"

That hurt.

That hurt a lot.

"Y-You really think that, Hi..." I couldn't say his name, nor finish my sentence. Once again my heart broke into millions of pieces. Even if he didn't mean it, it still hurt. It still brought me pain. Even if he didn't mean it, why did he say that out of all things? What happened to brothers forever? I never heard so much hatred and anger in his voice before.

"Fine... Hikaru. I'll leave," I said, heading to the door. My vision was blurry. I didn't notice the tears escaping my eyes.

"W-Wait. Kaoru! Don't leave me! I'm sor-" Hikaru called out. But it was too late. I closed the door and headed out.

"What have I done?" Hikaru whispered, burying his face his hands.

~Timeskip~

Tears still clouded my vision and everything was blurry. But I couldn't stop it. Why must everything happen to me? I didn't gain __________'s love and now Hikaru has hurt my heart as well.

Why me?

I crossed the road, wiping my tears and ignoring everyone's stares.

Suddenly, I hear cars horning and I looked to my right.

All I could remember was my life flashing in front of my eyes. Then a hearing a loud screech and a sudden burst of pain in my side.

Then everything fade to black.

~Timeskip~

~Normal POV~

You sat next to Hikaru, hand on top of his and squeezed it. The two of you sat in the hospital, right in front of the room that Kaoru was being treated.

"Hey, Kaoru is strong. He'll make it. I know it," you comforted.

"It's all my fault. He's my baby brother. My twin... How can I say that to him?" He whispered, shaking uncontrollably. You hugged him tightly and kissed his cheek.

Then the doctor came out and the two of us stood up. He looked down.

No...

It couldn't be...

"I'm sorry-" before he continued, Hikaru dashed into the room. I followed soon after and saw him kneeling down, next to Kaoru's bed, holding his hand.

"Kaoru, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said those things to you. I can't hate you. You're my brother. And of course I want you as my twin. There's no one else besides you that can be my twin. You're the best brother I could ever ask for. I'm so sorry. If only you can hear me. I'm sorry... I'm sorry..." Hikaru cried out, still holding onto Kaoru's hand. I walked over and placed my hand on Hikaru's shoulder.

I then noticed a soft glow I the corner of my eye. I turned and gasped softly. It was Kaoru. Or rather, his spirit. He gently smiled at me.

"I love you, __________. I've always had. But... You have Hikaru. Take care of him, okay? Make sure he doesn't do anything reckless. You make him very happy and I know you're the same with him. Have a good and long life. I'll be guiding and helping you on the way," Kaoru said, disappearing into thin air. I wanted to call out, but I couldn't.

I didn't tell him.

I didn't tell him I loved him at one point in my life.

Before I thought he wasn't interested and I moved to Hikaru.

But that will have to wait.